One Lonely Night

As I look in the mirror I stop and stare
Is that really me or is no one there
I often think of what I should do
Release myself or stay with you

My heart is lonely, full of despair
What should I do, is anyone there?
Can anyone help me, would they leave me there?
Does anybody hear me, does anybody care?

If there is someone out there that knows what its like
Please come and help me, I need you tonight
Sometimes it’s just so hard living this way
I really must go now, but I’ll see you someday

It’s time that I leave you and go up above
Like a bird I could fly, like a pretty white dove
I'm happy up here now, no ones in my way
No one to tease me or make me not want to stay

Well now that it’s over it’s in heaven above
He gives me a hug that fits like a glove
I do miss my family, I do miss my friends
But just like my life, here’s where it ends

I appreciate you listening
Not many people would
I wish I could thank you
But there’s no one I could

So this is the end
My sorrow is gone
And I no longer worry
About how I passed on 

Why do I feel like a hypocrite?

I tell others to get away from men like you. Yet I stay. 

You have given me bruises that others can't see. They were emotional.

Now you gave me one that others can see. I sit and wonder why I stay. 

No matter how I try and tell myself that I need to leave, my love keeps me here. 

I have tried to keep it real and truthful yet it does not seem to please you. 

Am I the hypocrite? Do I dare to see that? 

I am telling you now that I need to care for ME. 

I am done with the abuse. I am done with the crying. 

Leave if you want, no one is stopping you this time. 

Lets see how far you get without me. 

Remember that the biggest hypocrite is you. 

A Lover's Prayer

Alone in the night I await your return
my heart is heavy with the scars of lover's past.
Tho it beats fast and hard yearning to see what fate's next move may be.
Time has healed my wounded soul and I am eager to find love once again.
I look upon the moon and gaze into the stars,
dreaming up the perfect love for me.
A love to end all loves you see.
Strong yet soft braizen but gentle, this is the man for me.
A love that knows no judgement and has no fears
One to last through all my years.
A love thats true and let his arms behold,
the comfort of his passionate soul.
He will carry me to the end of time, I know his heart is always mine.
For he too cannot wait , to be with me at the end of every day,
the sweet seranade of tender words is all that we will say.
So grant my wish ye gods of love, i'm here on bended knee,
send true love down from the stars into the heart of me. 

Don't Bother

How come one day you're asking me when we're getting married
then another day you tell me forget it cuz I'm apparently dating other guys?
How come my phone would be blown up all day from your texts one day
and then silence another day?
How could you tell me such pretty little lies and paint pretty pictures?
How could you go off and party with hoodrat groupies instead of keepin' it real with me
then got the balls to tell me you miss me so much?
I think to myself, damn where things go so wrong?
What did I do wrong?
Nothing, it was you that did me wrong.
Like shards of glass, my trust was shattered.
Tears slid down my face and caused wet pillows.
I admit I haven't felt a great pleasure like yours in a long time
but you are not worth that pleasure with the endless pain you've inflicted.
I thought you were my friend and lover
but you're only just like the others.
I'm tired of the roller coaster that is you.
I'm tired of rowing a sinking boat.
When you come back and realize I was the one you let get away,
don't bother lookin' for me.